I have the feeling that life is just passing by. So many things are happening and I'm just trying to collect all impressions to digitalize them as soon as possible without feeling anything because there is no time to stop and feel. And I want to do it faster and better than the „competitors“.
The boundaries are changing. They're changing from things that are essential in my life to things that are important for others. But I don't get this displacement because I am distracted by so many things the whole time. So this "other" reality becomes mine. And I only recognize it in the moment my friends are asking me: "Vicky, what the hell is going on? You're just working, try to come back into the here and now."
Hard words. But they are thought-provoking. It is heavy to say "this far and no further" when you love your work and are totally into this every day.
But I felt it more and more every single day - there had to be a break! A pause of all these distractions, of the media and the self-presentation.
Where I was going to? To Sweden right in the middle of nowhere!
Eight hours of driving by car. Eight hours with updating my Facebook and Instagram feeds. While I was doing this I realized that the time without my laptop and mobile phone could be harder than I probably thought. But now is the time to free my mind of all screens and just recognize everything that surrounds me.
But it is a fight: Rationality against – I have to call it like this – addiction.
I ask myself: How could it get so far that people have to run from too much of accessibility and the oversupply of information? While I'm typing these words I realized that I am a part of it. I am also someone who feeds the WWW with unimportant information. Yes, I'm also standing on the digital marketplace and yelling: "Here I am!!"
I'm thinking about passed vacations. I remember how crazy I was to find the new wifi spot instead of just feeling the moment I was into.
So, how was my digital free time in Sweden? It was like: waking up – eating – reading – sleeping – reading and again: sleeping
I was surprised I had lot of these tired phases. I never realized them in my everyday life. Usually I'm drinking a lot of coffee and coke what suppresses the natural biorythm. But I think this is pretty normal in our performance society. In everyday work tiredness is the enemy.
Tired = unable to perform
So we're doing everything to perform 100% and even more.
During my digital detox it was really scary to realize how trained we are to be in working order and how addicted we are / I am to my digital being. During the time in Sweden I catched myself by thinking about my mobile phone again and again.
Do I really miss something? I mean: REALLY? No! Quite the opposite: Already during the first digital detox day I really felt free and relieved of all the digital input.
Afterwards I think it is a good idea to start every vacation with a digital free time to have the chance to absorb the energy and the feeling of new surroundings without any distraction. After three or four days I am sure I'm going to use my laptop again to transform new and creative ideas I collected during the intensive days before into postings to share with you guys.
So, for me it is important to be self reflected and find the ideal way to deal with the fact we're living in a digital world but without losing to contact to the intensity and beauty of every moment that is happening surround us.
What I was wearing:
Shirt - Pinko*
Skirt - Pinko*
Ancient Greek Sandals - Shoes